chaos in art.

Tragically beautiful.

Doris Salcedo.

insomnia.

music.

"Music at its best...is the grand archeology into and transfiguration of our guttural cry, the great human effort to grasp in time our deepest passions and yearnings as prisoners of time. Profound music leads us--beyond language--to the dark roots of our scream and the celestial heights of our silence. "

~Cornel West

To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.

~Ralph Waldo Emerson

news flash.

For all you Obama haters (which I mostly know of in the small conservative town of Rockwell) check this out:

Bush set 60 Billion dollars for eduaction, hence why they are paid less than most "professions" and why they are being laid off right now.

Obama plans to move the bar from 60 billion to 136 billion this year and 140+ billion thereafter. Think about the contributions of NASA, general technology, or my bias-philosophy. These professions are progressive because of the very fact that they solve problems and take initiative in answering questions about the world and its counterparts. Education is the key to progress, without it, we are only tools for capitalism, feudalism, etc., keeping us out of touch and removed from the essence of life and the joy of inquiry in experience.

i'm no activist.

After watching "Milk" and living amongst the "redneck" tradition most of my life, I realized something special. If my time spent in Rockwell has taught me anything, it's ignorance. It's almost unimaginable the ignorance that many in this town portray, in aversion to blacks, as well as homosexuals and Mexicans. Basically, if it isn't white, "it ain't right." My decision to leave this literal God-forsaken place one day is in this aforementioned fact. I can't imagine what it would be like, to live in a place where people are treated as people, where humility runs rampant, and where compassion overrides religious damnation. Gays, blacks, Muslims = people. Towns like this make me sick to my stomach in their hypocrisy of "Christlike" attitudes where they believe that compassion should be balanced with the wrath of Sodom and Gomorrah. The way the world looks now, I doubt that our naturally chaotic human ways will ever reach any virtuous pinnacle where honesty overrides greed, where pragmatism overrides dogma, and moreover, where love is pure and without bias.

God bless the united states of bigotry and tradition.

on sex.

In his work "Inner Experience," Bataille brings to light the power of the erotic as well as the importance of living in the present. (In conversation against asceticism in religion)

The man knowing nothing of eroticism is no less a stranger to the end of the possible than is the man without inner experience. One must choose the arduous, turbulent path--that of the non-mutilated "whole man."

So, basically, to be a "whole person" one must meditate often, and more importantly, indulge in the erotic. Good advice there Bataille, I think I'll take it...